Sunday, March 18, 2012

Always meant to belong

“I’d want to believe I’m not under any spell, but...”

“You’re not.”

“So what is this paralysis about? Why can’t I make things different? Better?”

“Nobody can undo things.”

“But they can have things done. They’re resilient and they can switch to a new form, like they’re evolving.”

“Resilience does not always mean moving on. It could imply running away.”

“At least they can bear the weight of their heads. What’s with them, it’s like they’ve no memories of what happened and no afterthoughts?”

“And you call that evolving?”

“No, but…”

“Comparing never helps, you know. You see what they don’t, nothing’s wrong with that.”

“What about the burden that comes with it? What about the differences that pull me away?”

“That’s entirely up to you, you can tell yourself it does not exist and be one of them. Or, you can unfold the pages; find some clarity for your head. Whatever floats your boat.”

“You’re really showing me ways to see it; the light.”

“And you can always count on me.”

“Of course, and you are…?”

“I am you.”

“ …“

“You just didn’t realize you have me in you.”


anonymi said...

Sorry for being the devil's advocate but ...

Everyone sees everything. It's just that everyone chooses to ignore some thing. Yes, even you. The only way to see everything is to get to know everyone, stand in their shoes, see what they see and look at the world like they do. Let me illustrate with a few simple example:

We all know the story about Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi, right? Well, I'll iterate over it for the sake of brevity. M.K. Gandhi was a young educated fellow who had studied law as a Barister in England. Long story short, he couldn't establish himself in India (where he returned after the death of his mother) he moved to South Africa. Note, until this point he had no objection with the British Empire and it's colonial reign. Now, let me ask you this question. Do you think he "saw" this as a problem until this point? I doubt it, had he perceived it as a problem, he would have started the campaign earlier. Continuing, he was once travelling in a train (first-class) when a couple of Englishmen literally kicked him out of the cabin (despite having a ticket) on charge that he did not have the right to travel first class. And then the action begins ... Let me ask you this, do you think he sees it as a problem now? Well, yes because he starts campaigning against British Colonial reign. But why do you think? Hint, hint: Because he now sees things differently. He sees things he has been ignoring for years, because he has been put into that position, he has seen it with someone else's eyes, not only his own.

Not convinced? Until a century and a half ago (I do not recall the exact date) women were not allowed to vote in the United States of America. And guess what? For a 100 years almost no one objected. 100 years is a long time. People were blind for 100 years --- or, perhaps they did not want to see. It was perfectly natural for women to not vote. But then someone (Elizabeth Stanton) saw this large hole in the social norm and she went on to fix it. The fun thing is people still denied to see the problem despite being pointed out because they have pre-conceived notions.

Either way, the point is ... everyone sees everything, it's just that everyone denies or is blind to some things. And it's those people who thrive to see things that other people tend to ignore, that can make or break things.

Let me give you one more example, this time it's more localised. You mentioned you watch Japanese animation, I assume you do so because you enjoy watching this specific type of animation. I also assume that you are bored watching, for e.g. Tom and Jerry or Micky Mouse so you like watching this specific genre: Japanese animation.

I am interested in computational systems and have used various operating systems. But I specifically use Linux. I don't like working in Windows because it is gets slow and bloated.

I see nothing special about Japanese animation. For me all of the above mentioned (and beyond) are animations, period. I fail to see why you are into this specific genre.

Also, you see nothing special about Linux. For you all of the above mentioned (and beyond) are operating systems, period. You fail to see why I'm into this specific operating system.

Now when I think about it, I can speculate and see that perhaps you:

- Like the narrating style in those animations
- Like the story of those animations
- Like the style of the animation
- Like the characters
- Like Japanese culture in general

... and other fun speculations. Notice, I can never know why (unless I ask you) but I can speculate and I can see why you may or may not like something. But before thinking about it, I never saw it. As they say in Nepali: "काला अक्षर भैंसी बराबर"

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anonymi said...


The same goes for the operating systems in my case.

And that's why, you need to stick the things you see, pick one and go for it. Because if you stand there trying to see everything, that's what you'll be left doing ... seeing. Only seeing things you cannot do anything about and not doing anything about things you could be doing things about (Ok, I know that statement is a bit difficult to parse).

I posted this before as well (albeit in a modified form) but a novelist called Samuel Beckett wrote this in a book called Unnamable:

"I can't move on, I must move on, I will move on."

You see, there are things that you can't do but you must do and organisms have been doing it none-the-less. Paying their bills, living, dying, working, writing long blog comments (ok, that was a joke).

And yes, people do run away, although not always. But either way, they do not evolve (maybe some do, but that depends on your (or my) definition of evolution). They rationalise. I'm sure you remember the story about the fox and the grapes that we have all read as children. That's what people do. They rationalise and move on.

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